When I Don’t Understand

At some point in every day, I find myself saying, “What in the world is going on?” This COVID-19 crisis blows my mind. It really is baffling.

I don’t pretend to understand what is going on where the virus is concerned. I have questions just like you. But my answers always end in, “I don’t know.”

However, I do know two things. First, I know that God knows the answers and that’s all I need to know. Second, Because God knows the answers and is in control of all things, I can trust Him and that’s what I plan to do.

Ecclesiastes 11:5 As you do not know the path of the wind, or how the body is formed in a mother’s womb, so you cannot understand the work of God, the Maker of all things. 

When I struggle to make sense of things or need clarification, I go to God in prayer and to His word.

As I lay in bed early one morning thinking about COVID-19 and the mysteries that surround it, I was reminded of Ruth in the bible.

Ruth’s father-in-law, brother-in-law, and husband died. Who can understand that? That had to be tough. I’m sure she had a lot of questions with no answers.

Ruth had a choice to make. She could go back to live with her parents or stay with her mother-in-law and relocate to her mother-in-law’s home town.

Ruth decided to stay with her mother-in-law. Her words were, “Your people will be my people and your God my God [Ruth 1:16].”

Ruth had chosen to stay close to God and His people and to trust Him and His plan for her, whatever that may be. She decided to allow her crisis to make her better and not bitter.

Things turned out well for Ruth in the end. She married a man named Boaz. Together, they started a family. They are the great grandparents of David. Best of all they are mentioned in Jesus’ genealogy.

Wow! Talk about God using a bad situation for good and His glory.

Last Summer I was diagnosed with breast cancer and had to undergo breast cancer radiation treatment. It was a horrible, miserable experience.

At the time of my diagnosis, I didn’t understand why God had allowed me to have breast cancer. I was full of questions with no answers. But I knew where to go for strength, encouragement, and comfort; God and His word.

As a result, instead of allowing the devastating diagnosis to make me bitter, I decided to allow it to make me better and allow God to use it to encourage others who were in the same situation. God used it for good and His glory.

The experience gave me empathy for others in health crises that I would not have had otherwise. Therefore, I knew exactly how to pray for them and encourage them.

It also changed me. My faith in God grew. I drew closer to Him and now know Him in ways I never knew Him before. It humbled me and gave me more insight into His sovereignty.

The experience also gave me a new outlook on life. I take time to enjoy moments and people more than I did before. I am also more determined than ever to fulfill my purpose.

God flooded me with His peace and gave new meaning to 2 Corinthians 12:9.

But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” 

The Lord enabled me to used my health crisis to point others to Him for strength, comfort, and salvation. After all, Isn’t that what it’s all about?

Are you struggling with wanting to understand what is going on in the world or in your own life? Are you struggling to trust the one who knows and understands all things?

Throughout the bible, we see account after account of how God took what was meant for evil and used it for good and for His glory [Genesis 50:20]. God was up to something then and I believe He is up to something now. Something we may not be able to see right now but we will. And it may mean something different to each one of us.

I once heard a quote by a well know preacher that has stuck with me. She said, “We live life forward but we understand it backward.” Isn’t that the truth!

I want to encourage you to stop exhausting yourself trying to make sense of everything that’s going on in the world. Faith means not understanding but trusting anyway.

Let’s go to the only one who knows all things and is in control of all things. Let’s go to God and His word. He has allowed this Corona crisis for a purpose. Let’s not allow it to make us bitter but instead to make us better and to change us.

Let’s allow God to use us to encourage others, pray for them, and point them to Christ for strength, comfort, and salvation.

God is up to something! Let’s not lean on our own understanding. Let’s trust Him and His plan for us, whatever that may be.

Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight. 

~Patrice Maguire

Dear God, I know I am a sinner, and I ask for Your forgiveness. I believe Jesus Christ is Your Son. I believe that He died for my sin and that You raised Him to life. I want to trust Him as my Savior and follow Him as Lord, from this day forward. Guide my life and help me to do Your will through the power of Your Holy Spirit. I pray this in the name of Jesus. Amen.


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